I signed a contract with myself to write down my thoughts during this divorce process. One purpose is to release my emotions by writing it down, the other purpose is to record my true feelings along the way.
On Jan 27, I went to see the attorney to prepare for the divorce process. $80 for the consultation. Attorney seems capable and easy-going.
On Feb 7, I went to see the attorney to sign the contract with her. $3000 deposit. And I promised to prepare materials for her. She seems reasonable.
On Feb 11, I went to attorney to finalize the temp order and official order.
Today Feb 14, I got up very early in the morning and went to Redwood City Court. I filed both temp order and official order. I did not talk much on the way to there, neither did I talk much going back to home. I kind of feel sad that I dragged my parents into this painful process but I cannot avoid it.
I can feel two kinds of emotions along the way. One is that finally I have the courage to end the nightmare marriage. The other one is the regret that I have lost 8 golden years in my life and I did not achieve anything. Not sure where is the future and where is my next love, marriage will end.
In the afternoon, attorney called me. Seems the other party is not cooperating so I have to go to court tomorrow again to re-file the temp order. Whatever the reason the other party want to complicate this process, it does not matter any longer. It is time to call the end. Further complication will only drag the process a bit longer but it cannot prevent things from happening.
I need to go to bed soon in order to prepare for tomorrow's work and drive and work with this re-filing.
The tv show guest suggested four things to live a better life:
- Keep yourself in a good mode.
- Get enough sleep
- Eat a balanced diet
- Exercise regularly
